Failed the Program

I'm writing from Trudeau International Airport in Montreal, waiting for my flight back to Calgary. I failed again and wasn't able to finish the program. It was hard and I had difficulty with remembering things again. Physically it was hard as well. I was practicing shooting yesterday and my arms and my legs were hurt. I needed to get at least 200 and my best was 183. I was on my feet for nearly 3 hours and then in the afternoon a sort of physical defense for another 3 hours. I then went to class to get help with the exam that I had failed and I would write this coming Sat. 

Eventually I got back to the resident at around 18:15! I took a shower and went to AB&B (the acronym I created for cafeteria and stands for Awful, Blend and Boring!), ate something disgusting and went back to the residence again. I was so tired but couldn't sleep. It reminded me of what Mon always says: If you're too tired, you can't sleep well at night. I was up until probably 23:30 and would fall sleep and would wake up frequently. My mind was going everywhere: to the upcoming examination, the things I've done in the past and I regret now, particularly with The Lady, shooting, physical activity, you name it. And then it was so hot. 

I guess in total I only slept for about 3 hours. I shaved went to AB&B and sat with 3 of the fellas and then when I was getting ready to go back to the range and start practicing shooting, the Supervisor came and told me that the Chief wanted to talk to me. At the beginning I thought that only would be an assessment and warning but then I realized because I had failed a written examination for physical activity of some sort the day before, that would be considered the end of me in the training center. I then was escorted by two ladies to my resident and I packed. 

I guess it's now OK to say that I was trying to become an employee of CBSA and failed because I'm not going to go back and I'm not revealing anything secret. Four people had failed before me and except for one who the others were saying was a crazy woman and over 40 (I'm only quoting and no disrespect to her or anyone else) 3 other people had left, all Caucasian and all below 25 years of age. My only recommendation to people who are applying to CBSA is that they would need to work hard. It's not an easy program. I will answer question but not in regards to what I have signed a privacy statement for. 

(Photo: Canada Border Services Agency offers lots of opportunities. However the program is a tough one. Be prepared to face everything when you apply)